Seeking Healing, Finding the Living God : A True Story of Faith, Healing, and Spiritual Transformation After Encountering Jesus

Seeking Healing, Finding the Living God A Memoir of Grace, Identity, and the God Who Listens
He was born the firstborn son of a Buddhist family in southern Thailand — and from his first breath, that meant his life already belonged to someone else.

It belonged to tradition. To merit. To the hope of saving his parents in the next life.
Praised by monks. Set apart as spiritually sensitive. Expected to repay karmic debt through discipline and devotion. But beneath the reverence and ritual, he was disappearing — not through rebellion, but through obedience.
What began as devotion slowly became erasure. What was called holiness quietly became a cage. And what was supposed to protect him nearly destroyed him.

This is not a story of rebellion. It is not a dramatic overnight conversion. It is the sober, honest account of a young man who was failed by the very system that claimed to carry him — and what he found when he finally stopped performing and simply cried out.

What he encountered was not a religion. It was a God who listened.

Along the way, he encountered what cannot be explained by reason alone — an out of body experience that brought him to the edge of death, physical healing that medicine had never achieved, dreams that carried unmistakable spiritual weight, and a presence that arrived not in a temple, but at his lowest moment.

Through wrestling with doubt, family loyalty, spiritual exhaustion, and the terrifying possibility that grace might actually be free, Shane discovers what no system of merit had ever offered him:
Presence instead of distance.
Forgiveness instead of debt.
Identity instead of erasure.
Grace instead of performance.

Seeking Healing, Finding the Living God is written for anyone who has ever felt that faith was something to be earned rather than received — and for anyone who has wondered, in their darkest moment, whether anyone was truly there.

He was. He still is.

If this story is meant for you, you will know it by the time you finish reading this page.