Stillness and Survival: A Life Between Trauma, Glitter, and the Echo of My Own Voice

I was a quiet boy with loud dreams. But dreams don’t grow well in a house full of fear.
As a gay child in a home where silence meant survival, I learned to vanish. For years, I kept my voice hidden – not just from the world, but from myself.

Then came music. Drag. Glitter. Applause.

And, for a time, freedom. Onstage, I could be someone bigger than the pain. For twenty years, I sang and performed my way into pieces of joy I never thought I’d know.

But trauma has its own rhythm.

In the quiet of the covid years, the past came roaring back. I lost my voice again – this time to adulthood pain, depression, and the unhealed echoes of my childhood. STILLNESS and SURVIVAL, is a story of silence and expression, queerness and survival, collapse and return. It is about finding your own voice – again and again – even when the world tries to take it away.

This is not just a memoir.

It’s a reclaiming.